I NEED YOUR HELP !!! PLEASE !!

HEllO ALL .. Mii Best cousin's birthday is coming up .. it'll be on July 24 !!
so i prepared his birthday gift .. and i thought why not making a piczo site with beautiful comment from you all wishing him a happy birthday <33 not to mention that he's the one i love so please do it , it'll mean something to him and to me , i really would love to see his beautiful smile that i love <3 your comment will draw a beautiful smile





go to this link http://happybirthdaygoogles.piczo.com/?cr=1 and wish GooGles a happy birth day in the shout box,
his birthday is on 24th of july so please do it now ^^


please it won't even take 5 seconds ..
do it for me =]

it'll be appreciated <3 ..

one-sided love [6]

THE NEXT DAY :




MOM: YA MAMA wake up !!






cherrii: ehmmm * stretching* ok .. ok i'll get up *sleepy voice*





MOM: ok !! then show me yourself getting up !






cherrii: Ughh !! GOD WHY ME * whining while getting up *






MOM: Good now get dressed !





cherrii: alright !






i got up .. took a shower ,, headed my room to choose a dress to wear ! cause am going to see him today so i wore my white dress with green and purple flowers it was short and sleeveless and i wore my purple heels .. i looked cute yet very simple . i straightened my hair ,, and was DONE ! headed to my mom's room






Me: mama !?






mama: ya3youn mama ,..






Me: do i look cute ?







mama : ya7yatii you always look cute !! .. you look hot * winks*





Me: hehe!! thanks .. anyway am done , what about you ?






mama: am done in 10 minutes go see your sis .






Me: alright *as if am going to see her *






so after 10 minutes mom was ready ,, she asked me to get in the car with my siblings
.. i did what she said i go in the car and i was so nervous .. am going to see him !
mom FINALLY arrived ,, and then started the car and drove ! .. we reached there in about 13 minutes ..






everybody stepped out ! except for me as always ! I WAS REALLY NERVOUS MY Heart was beating So hard and i hated the feeling of being nervous ,, it makes me wanna vomit !!
so mom shouted me







MOM: 5al9eeeeeeena !! i want to lock the car !! GET OUT YALLA










* MY HEART JUMPED FROM ITS PLACE !! *








Me: OK OK !! ALRIGHT !! MOM DON'T DO THIS TO ME AGAIN YOU SCARED THE HELL OUT OF ME !!








MaMa : 5al9eena








Me: * i rolled my eyes*








WE WALKED TOWARDS THE DOOR . WE ENTERED THEIR HOUSE , AND THERE WAS HIS MOM GREETING US,, WHAT A LOVELY WOMEN REALLY SHE'S THE MOST KIND PERSON EVER.. AND OF COURSE THE WHOLE TIME MY HEART WAS BEATING WAITING FOR HIM TO
COME DOWN .








HIS MOM AND MINE , WERE TALKING , AS I WERE STARING AT THE STAIRS WAITING FOR HIM TO COME DOWN AND SEE HIS BEAUTIFUL ANGELIC FACE .. AHHH I MISSED THAT FACE ..









AND THEN HIS MOM PREPARED THE LAUNCH ,, WE ALL WENT TO EAT ..
FEW MINUTES :









HIS MOM : MUNCIE EEEEE EEEEEE EEEEE * CALLING HIM FROM DOWN STAIRS WHILE HE'S UP IN HIS ROOM* COME DOWN HUNNII








AND THAT'S WHEN MY HEART STARTED BEATING SO HARD ,, MOM STARTED EATING ..








MOM : HUNNII YOU WANT RICE WITH CHICKEN ?







ME: EHHMM MAMA RICE EE BUT CHICKEN NO I DON'T EAT CHICKEN










MOM: MAMA 7BIBTII PLEASE EAT YOU NEED PROTEINS









ME: MAMA DON'T FORCE ME PLEASE !! * DALA3 FROWN *









MOM : ALRIGHT *ROLLING HER EYES*










WHILE THAT I TURNED MY FACE AND I SAW HIM RIGHT BEHIND ME ,, HE WAS WALKING TOWARDS US .. DAMN HOW QUIET HE IS !!! HOW COME WE DIDN'T FEEL HIM COMING DOWN ..








THOUGHTS : ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !! DANG THAT WALK IS KILLING ME !! AM BURNING !!







7PiPii WAS WEARING WHITE PANTS AND A WHITE TOP ,, ACTUALLY HE WAS WEARING THE DISHDASHSA'S UNDERWEAR [[emkasar and it's white top],, HE WAS COMFORTABLE WITH WEARING THAT <33.. HE'S PERFECT IN EVERY WAYS ..










SO HE CAME AND SAT IN FRONT OF ME ,, HE WAS SO QUIET , HE DIDN'T EVEN SAY A WORD ,, HE DIDN'T SAY HI EVEN @@ .. I WAS LIKE WHAT IS WRONG ? !! .. AND HE DIDN'T EVEN LOOK AT ME .. HE KEPT STARING AT THE FLOOR THE WHOLE TIME!










THOUGHTS: =[ .. IS HE GOING TO PURSUE THIS QUIETNESS ,, SHALL I TALK TO HIM ? WHAT IF I SOUNDED WEIRD ? WHY ISN'T HE TALKING ,, ..











MOM : MAMA PUT SOME RICE AND CHICKEN FOR MUNCIE ..









THOUGHTS : AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH MAMA !!! NO !! ..








ME: EHH hehehe ALRIGHT **CONFUSED*










THAT'S WHEN HE FINALLY RAISED HIS HEAD UP !! HE LOOKED AT ME IN THE EYE .. I COULDN'T MOVE I STARED AT HIS BEAUTIFUL MAGICAL EYES !! SERIOUSLY DAMN THIS LOOK REALLY EFFECTS ME !! .. IT MESSES ME UP!!










ME: WANT SOME RICE ? * BLUSHING*









MUNCIE: EHMMM YES PLEASE ,, * Y3NII AMOOT ANA !! ? HE'S MANLY VOICE AHHH NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE HIS AMAZING VOICE*







ME: *PUTTING RICE IN HIS PLATE * ENOUGH ?







MUNCIE: MORE PLEASE * SMILING *







THOUGHTS: *WHILE PUTTING MORE RICE FOR HIM * amazing THIS BOY IS TAKING OVER ME !! YA 7LATA .. <33





ME: WANT SOME CHICKEN ?








MUNCIE: YEA .








ME: *AFTER PUTTING RICE AND CHICKEN FOR HIM I HANDED HIM THE PLATE*
I SMILED BUT HE DIDN'T LOOK AT ME !!









HE STARTED EATING WITH HIS HAND .. HE LOOKED SO CUTE .. BUT STILL THE WHOLE TIME HE WAS EATING HE DIDN'T LOOK AT ME OR TALKED TO ME .. I KEPT LOOKING AT HIM BUT HE DIDN'T NOTICE ANYTHING .. HE FINISHED EATING AND THEN GOT UP ,,, ANDD AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THE WAY HE GETS UP !! DAMN HE SHAKES ME IN THE INSIDE .. THE WAY HE SUPPORT HIS ARM AND THEN PUSH HIS SELF UP To GET UP ,, IT KILLS ME !!
ANYWAY HE GOT UP AND WENT BACK TO HIS ROOM ,,








THOUGHTS: AM I TURNING OFF SOMETHING ?!! THAT'S Sad ! iffffff i wanna go home =[







and then every body finished eating including me ,the maids came in and took the plates and everything .. and then his sister and mom and his mom with my sis and my lil bro and me ,, we all sat talking except for me i was quiet the whole time whining in my thoughts ..







20 minutes later :







Muncie: CHERRII CHERRII ? !! * calling my name from his room *








cherrii : yea ? ! *my heart jumped RELLY @@ ..**







Muncie: wanna play guitar hero ?






cherrii: * hehe* yea sure ..






Muncie: come up !






cherrii: i went up to his room .. and my two annoying siblings came up with me !! >.> !
i hated them so much at that moment cause i was willing to let him know about my feelings but they ruined every thing @@ ,,








anyway i reached up to his room .. he was sitting on his ehmm let's say sofa !! ,, lol . it looked weird to me !,,
and then he smiled at me when i walked in ,, i smiled back .. the moment was AWKWARD VERY !!
i went to sit next to him ..









Muncie: so what song you want to play ?







thoughts : i don't know any song in this game !! SHIT !!







cherrii: hehe as you like ... but please an easy one ..






Muncie: * hahahaha* alright ,, ehmmm let's see .. * searching *





Me: *staring at him with a smile .*





Muncie: this one is easy .. here* handing me the guitar *





me: * taking the guitar * hehe thx * blushing*







i started playing and i felt WEEEEEEEEIIIIIIIIIIIIRRRDD !! it was embarrassing i missed every button !! .. i suck at this game !! .. he was laughing at me the whole time ,,!! i was embarrassed yet so happy that am making him laughing ,, he laughs like an angel <33 ..







my sister played few songs ... she's not good but at least better than me lol .. so as my bro ,, and then my bro left the room leaving me and him and my sis in the room ..
i got really bored at playing a game that i suck at !!
he noticed that .. and then he offered me :








Muncie: wanna play a real guitar ?







cherrii: yaay yea sure <3 ..






he handed me his electric guitar ..
i love guitars ,, but i don't know how to play them !








Muncie: play me a song * sarcastic tone *








cherrii: HAHAHA * i WAS SHY *








i started to hit the strings and playing randomly !
and then i asked him










cherrii: why don't you play a song ?









Muncie: SURE











he took the guitar from me and started to play CHASING CARS BY SNOW PATROL * it's the song that am playing in my blog * he played it really good .. he's GOOD .. when he finished









Me: wow . you're really good .. why don't you sing while playing this song ?










muncie: hehe you want me to sing ? * laughing* * ya ba3ad 3omrii seeing him smiling was enough for me *








cherrii: yea please ..








Muncie: hehe !! alright







he started singing and he sounded amazing !! he was beautiful !! he SHINED !! i kept looking at him while he was singing with me praying to god in my thoughts to let him be with forever !! he's truly one in a zillion !!
he was an angel <33 i kept staring at him !!
and then he stopped suddenly he was like haha mo7afe'6 ele'3eneya !! YA 7YATII <33







cherrii: AWWWWWW you sound beautiful <3








Muncie : hehe .. thanks .. want me to teach you this song ?








ME: YESS ,, please hehe * i was happy*








Muncie : hahaaha alright .. look !








he taught me how to hold the guitar and then taught me the first two parts ,,
and then he handed me the guitar to play !those first two parts
i tried the first time but the sound of it sounded REALLY BAD .. that he laughed lol .. i suck ,,,








Muncie: NO NO ! you need to press really hard on the string .. alright ?










cherrii: alright ,, * blushing * heheh !!









i tried again and i sucked up again !! so he got closer and my heart started beating everytime he gets closer !! .. i got confused he was so close to me !physically ,, in that moment i wanted to hug that poor thing !! he was cute and innocent ,,









Muncie: LOOK ! * holding my hand to shape it in the right position to hold the strings* * MY HEART JUMPED*
he just touched my hand in that moment i wanted nothing but holding his FOREVER !!









he was talking and describing !! and i was deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep in my thoughts wishing he'd be mine oneday ,!!! at that moment my sis left the room leaving me and him alone in this room ! at that moment i wanted to tell him about my feelings but i guessed that it wasn't the right time he's teaching me !!








thoughts: i want to tell him AHH !! am gonna tell him !!!








cherrii: Muncie? *confused*








Muncie: yea ?










thoughts : OH GOD OH GOD HERE I GO !!









cherrii: ehmmmm .. AM I DOING WELL ? !! * CHANGED THE SUBJECT*










Muncie: lol yea you're getting better ! * laughing* ..









cherrii: Hehe ..










thoughts : DUMB ME DUMB ME ! DUMB ME DUMB ME ! DUMB ME DUMB ME ! DUMB ME DUMB ME !AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!










and then i got bored .. and we decided to play guitar hero again .. he played AND HE WAS REALLY GOOD !! I WAS AMAZED !! and then it was my turn he handed me the guitar and got up and went to lay on his bed ,,,











thoughts: am i being clingy or something ? !! he wants to sleep =/ .. i better get out ,, .








so i put the guitar on he floor and walked towards the door ..










cherrii: hey you look sleepy ,, i''ll leave you now to sleep alright ,..* opening the door to get out *









Muncie; NO NO WHERE ARE YOU GOING !! HEY CLOSE THE DOOR ,, CLOSE THE DOOR ,,
AM NOT GONNA SLEEP .. i just want to lay ,, go continue playing








cherrii: it's fine hehe ,, seriously ,,








Muncie: no no it's fine GET IN ,,








cherrii: alright alright * laughing * ..







so i headed bacck to the chair to play ,, I WAS SO BORED ,, and he was on his bed .. 10 minutes later !!








cherrii: muncie ?!!







Muncie: ................







cherrii: MUNCIE !!? * raising up my voice a lilttle*









Muncie: ...................................................................................................................












he was sleeping why did he sleep !! am i that BORING PERSON !! .. i was embarrassed yet hurt i wanted to cry !! i was hurt !! SO HURT .. he wasn't interested !! AT ALL !!! .. HE EVEN SLEPT !! i turned off the Xbox ,, and got up to leave his room , i got closer to him .. and i took a look at him .. he was sleeping like a baby
hehe with his mouth wide open ,, aww yya 7yatiii ,, <3 .. i sat on the edge of his bed !! staring at hem for 10 minutes lol .. i was afraid that he'll get up finding me on his bed lool that's be EMBARRASSING he'll freak out @@ !! .. and then i kissed his pillow and then i smelled it .. !!! * heheh wayed 3lai * !! at that moment a tear fell down !! .. i want him ,!!!!!!! ..i really want he means everything to me .. i covered him well .. but i was being really careful didn't want him to wake up and freak him out !! ..










and then i went down stairs to join the others ,,
that's when mom told me that we're leaving ,, i said my good byes to everyone and then went out to get in the car ..
mom started the car , gave her the usual cheeck kiss .. and then after 13 minutes we arrived home .. i was SO TIRED REALLY ..







i wore my Pj .. and hugged my lovely cute frog (as him) and slept <33 !!

one-sided love [5]

the next morning i woke up with him (frog) laying right next to me with his arms around me




Me: Good morning =]






Him (frog) :
....................................






Me: * smiling with some laughter while closing my eyes* Moving my hands above him to hug him ,, i wrapped my arms around him i gave him a tight hug and gave him a gentle morning kiss on his chess






Him(frog): ....................................







Me: * i felt stupid cause of it's silence *








so i pushed it away and i got up washed my face , brushed my teeth ,, wore my school short uniform (i love it short) , did my hair i straightened it and i left up my bangs in a side with a small cute pink butterfly ,wore my white socks and then wore my black converse .. i looked cute for school ,thus i headed school .....









the classes were boring and of course i didn't pay attention to the teachers AT ALL and then at my chemistry class i was bored as HELL.. so i lightly bent in a very quiet way so none would notice ,and opened my backbag to take out my diary and then i started to write something about him :







thoughts: Mmmmmm ...... I LOVE YOU ...... *writing down what am thinking* AM INSANE ABOUT YOU ... AHHHHHHHHH i'll be waiting for the day where i'll find my self drowned in your love , sunk in your chess *getting this strong beat that cause an ache * [[YOU and I ]] what am always dreaming of .. GOD i need a description to show you how much i love you ,, ahhhh Muncie i wonder ,, will you ever be mine ? =[ ,,





as i was writing my friend tried to tell me that the teacher is watching me !






DANA: Psssssst ,,, hey !! *whispering* cherrii !!!! HEY ! MISS ELLEN IS LOOKING AT YOU !







CHERRII: **TOTALLY IGNORING HER,, DROWNING SO DEEP IN MY THOUGHTS OF HIM THAT I DIDN'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT EVERYONE AROUND ME**






MISS ELLEN: **Hitting the stick SO HARD on the table that i felt my soul getting out of me **






in that moment i was SO SCARED !!! REALLY i mean people am in high school no more silly stupid acts on teachers ,, it's my future , mid school is over !! now it's serious , , she looked at me in the eye , GOD SHE SCARED THE HELL OUT OF ME





MISS ELLEN: what are you writing ? * with a deep frown voice*




Cherrii: .....*silence*................ [ i was scared yet very embarrassed didn't know what to say or how to explain ] the only thing that was running in my mind was what if she read what i wrote ? .





MISS ELLEN: I SAID WHAT ARE YOU WRITING !!!! *yelling at me* at that moment my eyes were tearing ..






CHERRII: .. ehmm nothing ,, *forming tears*







Miss ellen: *pulling the note i was writing in ,, in a very savage way !! ,, took a look at it and took it from me * come see me after the class *angery look*





cherrii: alright : *staring at the floor*







THOUGHTS: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !! NO that just didn't happen !! STUPID STUPID ME !! I WAN TO VANISH AHH !! PLEASE GOD JUST KILL ME !!






so after the class i went to see her ..






*knock knock*




Me: miss ellen ,, can i come in




miss ellen : come in !




Cherrii: *walking towards her and stood in front of the other side of her desk *




miss ellen: SIT !





Me: * i sat*




MISS ELLEN : look what i read to day did not please me at all !! i never thought that would come out of a decent smart girl like you !! ,, i was shocked ,, what was in your mind?!! what were you thinking of ? and whose Muncie ??.. what you were writing won't ever find your future !! EVER *throwing the pen on the desk* you should re-considerate what you were doing! SERIOUSLY !! please stop what you are doing !! STOP HERE !! you're still a kid ,, i won't tell your parents . but if this happened again ,, they should certainly know !! .. now can you promise me this won't happen again !?





Me: *tearing* yes miss am sorry ! i promise this won't happen ever again !







miss ellen: i know you won't .. you are one of my favorite students in my classes ,, come here .. she gave me a hug .. i love miss ellen ..





miss ellen : now go to your class!! so you don't miss a thing ! *while writing a paper for me, for my math teacher as a proof that i were at her office*





so i went to my class,, and then after 4 hours of boredom , school finally finished ! i got home .. head straight to my room ,, did the usual things ,, i wore my pj ,, and i slept cause i was so tired ,, not to mention that i hugged my Muncie i mean the frog ! ,, so days turned to weeks and weeks turned to months ,, and that's me !! every day i would sit on my bed wait for him to go online !! and talking to the frog and hugging it all the time ,, where oneday he was online ,, i was talking to him <3







cherrii: hey ! how r you






Muncie:heyyy
fine thanks
just woke up
what about you?






cherrii:
didn't sleep lool mwa9lla






Muncie:olaa loool
laish im3athba nafsech? ;p





cherrii:yea
no it's just that i don't feel sleepy

Muncie:lool
tawa y6l3on natayje
bacher bro7 a5ethhom






cherrii:natayej what ?
school ?





Muncie:
yea





cherrii:
Ohh !





Muncie:
added you on my new e-mail ok?
ee they had to ship them to London madre shno
3shan y9al7onhom






cherrii:ahh okie
i hope you did great
!!!!!!! i hate "netayej"






Muncie:
inshala
hehe we all do





cherrii:lll
what usually your marks are like?







muncie:moo A* wla shy chthe lool
7ade ymkn C aw B







Cherrii:why !!!!!!!!!!!!!! * he's really smart that's why i was shocked*
walla marra "A






Muncie:
once in French ybt
mnzman
al7en thanawe IGSCE's 93ab ityeben A =/
tkfain imti7an Biology 20 pages






Cherrii: WOOW!!!!






Muncie: lol ee






cherrii:okie hey take this pic off pllz --> * a pic on his dp . that really scared me :[ *
youmma e5are3






Muncie:lol ok * he took it off ya 3omrii ana ,, sema3 elkalam *







cherrii: thanks







Muncie:better ?







cherrii:lool yea






Muncie: lool ;D
I'm gonna use the toilet ok, be right back asra3 sre3 *aww 7biibii he needed the toilet*







Cherrii:lool
take your time







Muncie:
hey sorry
so what you up to yal shy6ana






cherrii:
am up to nothing to day "HAHAHAHA"






Muncie :lool
HEHE!
g3d al3ab Guitar Hero




Cherrii:okie that's great you started to get used to it
nice =D
i love guitar hero
but you don't let me play *sad face*




Muncie: afa ,, but yes i do let you all guys play




Cherrii: lool
* another pic on his dp that i hated too*
Muncie pllz change the pic it's still "YOUMMMA"




Muncie: loool
oook
2thaiteena






Cherrii:okie keep it *HUMMPPHH*
YOUMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
shno hatha am scared =[






Muncie:
SPARTANS!!
WHAT IS YOUR PROFESSION? * Ya 7Yatii .. i dunno but when he said it my heart jumped , he has stolen each piece of my heart *




Cherrii:no profession take it off * i hated it @@ *
NOW




Muncie: * 7bibi 5ra3ta*
5laaaa9





cherrii:yea this is much better * a pic of him when he were a baby AHH !! ya 7biibii**






Muncie:=D a5eran





cherrii:*Initiated a file transfer *
hey Muncie it's me when i was a baby






Muncie: 3jeeeeeeba





cherrii:thanks
my eyes were blue





Muncie: YEA i noticed !
o al7en shno t'3yr lonhom ?





cherrii:yea now they are green to Grey "mixed"






Muncie:ahh
lgreen 7lo b3d
ana brown mla8a ** NO !! his eyes are the most beautiful eyes i have ever seen .. i love him =[ *






cherrii:shno mala8a






Muncie:mla8a wala lol
brown
t7sen m95ra






cherrii: l2 bel 3aks 7ellow brown , your eyes are beautiful .. * i REALLY meant that from my heart*






Muncie:ya 3ami kil il nas brown






cherrii:ya 3ami tkfa






Muncie:laish mo mathalan red 6la3le





cherrii:wow red is cool





Muncie:wai3 brown mala8aaa wayyyyy ;p






cherrii : very nice l2
imagine your eyes , were like mine ?





Muncie:
YEA !!!






cherrii:
it 9er etyaneen





Muncie:
m7'6o'6a ;p






cherrii:i
am used to it
.. in school they r like cherrii
woow your eyes r so beautiful
lool





Muncie: .. they are =)





cherrii :looool thanks again
.. okie hey Muncie imma go bye





Muncie:alright
take care






Cherrii: you too bye








***¦lı»Cherrii«ıl¦ is now Offline ***







i was smiling the whole time.. he drew a smile on my face ,.. am addicted to him !! am so addicted to him !!! .. he's my priority from now on !! he's my everything !!! AND I MEAN IT ,MY EVERY THING !! ,,





..................................

the next day he was online as always ..






Muncie: Ga3ed al3ab guitar hero ;P






cherrii: YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!wannasa ,, you don't get bored ?







Muncie: lool No.
when was the last time you visited us ? didn't they let you play ?
last time you came why didn't you play ma5aloch?





cherrii: they did !! but i didn't get enough -.- !!






Muncie: afaaa





cherrii: Minnie didn't let me !! mashallah 3alaiha






Muncie: next time bas intay tl3ben loool ** ya 7yatii ana **
ma a5alehom yl3bon :P






cherrii: we'll come over to your place tomorrow =D





Muncie: 7yakom 7yakom .. * what a getleman *






and then we ended the conversation .. cause i was really tired !! ,, i need to get some sleep ..
i have a big day tomorrow .. so i hugged my Muncie (frog), and cuddled in bed , and OH i gave him a night kiss .. an dthen i said it again and always !








I...........LOVE..........YOU..........MUNCIE

one-sided love [4]

style="color: rgb(102, 51, 255);">i woke up the next morning with a bright huge wide smile on my face .. i loved yesterday so much, it was sad that it's over ! anyway .. now i finally knew that he's in my heart and i want to keep him for ever and ever .. i didn't know him very well but i was willing to be friends with him and try to know him more than i do .. i want to be close to him and to his heart , i want to be his lover . i want to be the one that he thinks about all the time, i want to be his love of life ,, i want him to come to me whenever he needed someone , i want him to feel comfortable with me ,, i want to see his smile that i love on his face forever and ever ,, i want him mine JUST MINE ,, i want him to keep me in his heart .. i want to hold his hands , i want to hug him.. i want to sink in his chess and cry whenever i felt crying ,, I WANT HIM !









and i spent every day writing things about him in my diary .and let out every thing that it's hidden in me . i kept writing and writing ,, letting out and letting out ,,










here >>>



a page in my diary :



what's the world without you ? =[
i LOVE you , when will you realize that =C
if i can get this courage and let out these things in me and tell you about how MUCH [[[ I REALLY LOVE YOU ]]] will i ever get the chance to hug you ?
if you can read what's written in my eyes you'd know what's hidden in my heart for you .
please take a look at me . CLOSELY , " will i ever be enough for you ? " what's the world without me to you ? do you really carry some feelings to a girl ?! ..
will you love me back the way i love you .. i have lots and lots to say ! it's just that i can't describe what's in me easily ,, i need you here with me and help me with your love to me to let things out and know how much you mean to me ! i hope you'd be with me to prove to you that i am the one who cares about you the most . i want you mine . i want to have the rest of my life with you ,, just you and I . that what i all ever wanted .. =']
hope we get together soon !







so one day Minnie and banana slept over at my place .. and as usual we would really have fun together ..



minnie was on her email where i found his email in her contacts list and she was talking to him .. i asked her to give him my email and add me .. and being the good guy that he is .. he added me





when i got online i saw him online too . i was too shy to start the conversation
so i went like :




CHERRII: Hello ^^ ,, whose this ? * as if i don't know *




MUNCIE: Oh HEY .. It's Muncie. how you been ?





at that moment i was like AHHH !! he replied and my heart started to beat so hard !!




CHERRII: Hehe Hey muncie I've been great thanks ^^ what about you ?




Muncie: doom ,I've been great as well





and then i smiled a smile that in a moment i felt like my cheeks will explode any minute ..
so we kept talking and talking and talking .. and we started to know each other a bit more especially for me i got to know him more and more and fall for him more and more
and i started to wait for him to go online just to talk to him , and when goes online i start to get these butterflies that tickles my tummii !




i knew that the green colour is his favorite color , he hates jeans , he loves three quarter pants , he's so simple , he loves his head shaved *bald* i hate that he thinks it's more comfortable !! he loves wearing soles other than wearing sport Nike or converse shoes like other boys , it's because when he sits somewhere he loves baring his feet awww so cute .. his biggest dream is to be a doctor *he once told me that * he loves short girls ,he finds them cute , he would love to be a jet pilot one day.. his birthday is in July 24 ..
he loves playing guitar , he loves playing piano , he wants to have three boys when he's a father in future *he once told me that* he said he hates girls . He stutters <33 and ahhh when he stutters my heart stutters with him ,he's not too tall and not too short he's normal .. he has beautiful black hair and a killing thick dark eyebrows and AN AMAZINGLY beautiful dark eyes .. and his hand aww i love the way his fingers are shaped . he once said that they are ugly , at that moment i wanted to PUNCH him on the nose ! they were beautiful and the touch of them is more than any beautiful word to describe his touch!! He has a tender heart !,he always wears a smile and has the best personality ever Yes, i LOVED a jewel and i know it.
He is truly a beautiful person. .he's unique and i want him mine





days turned to weeks :
one day i went to my cousins house and i saw that HUGE STUFFED animal ! it was a frog , i loved it , it was HUGE ! like the men size i guess, i hugged it and i wrapped it's arms around me !! in a glance in my thoughts i pictured the frog as him ! i know weird but i loved the feeling !! I LOVED IT ! it's like am hugging him ! i don't care if it's weird or not !! IT'S HIM ,, it FEELS HIM!!
and then




CHERRII: AHHHHHH !! IRMAAAAAAAA ! this frog is coming with me home !!




IRMA : WHAT !! COME ON CHERRII




CHERRII: NO NO !! PLEASE I WANT THIS FROG *hugging her and nagging*




IRMa: alright , alright you can have it * rolling her eyes*




cherrii : awwww ya 7yatii <3 style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">*kissing her cheeks*




irma: AWW cherrii stop * laughing loudly*




cherrii: HAHAH ..




MAAAN ! i was so happy ,, am going home and this amazing thing is coming with me..
irma is my closest cousin , she knows everything about me except for this little beautiful secret am hiding from every one *is about me loving him*




so i got home with him ..i mean the frog '.' !
i laid it on my bed and gave it a kiss and then i headed to my bathroom to brush my teeth , comb my hair and wash my feet cause it was my bed time .. i wore my Pj and it was a yellow short dress and it's size was XXX LARGE (though i weight 49) it was cute on me and SOOOOOOOOOOOO COMFY !!
and then i moisturized my body with my Moisturizing cream for body and i moisturized my lips as well .. it makes it so soft i love it , i always do that before i sleep ,,






and then i headed back to my room , and there was My Muncie laying on my bed ,, I MEANT THE FROG !!! **i wonder what will he think of me if he knew am having a frog stuffed animal as him** !!! ANYWAY .. i looked at it as it's him ! in moments of this i started to see him !!! instead the frog i got SO into it .. i laid next to him and got his arms wrapped around me , it was comfy so comfy i gave him a cheek kiss,, My heart started beating and i took a long breath and then i started to run my fingers through his and held him tightly i was closing my eyes to get more into it and i so loved it .. and then i said it again





I........ LOVE........ YOU....... MUNCIE ....






That night i kept my eyes closed til i fell asleep in that position where he was right next to me with his arms around me ,, that was the best night sleep and the best feeling i ever had ....

one-sided love [3]

the sight of him was OHHHHH STUNNING AS USUAL . i still remember what he was wearing , he was wearing this beige t-shirt and that three quarter and it was a little bit baggy it was cute on him ,he looked amazingly cute <3>.> !





THOUGHTS : OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD IS HE AN ANGEL <3>





he glanced me and :





Muncie: Hey Cherrii Na3eeman




Me: Heehe . Al...ll, Allah ye..ee.an3am eb7alik *Stuttering* ,*choking*
at that moment there was a table in front of me that I DIDN'T SEE !!
i was too busy looking at his angelic face ! and then i kinda fell , u know that slip when you feel like you'll slip and then you twist your body RIGHT , LEFT , EVERYWHERE to find your balance and gather your self up and hope that no one saw you ! IT'S HILARIOUS !!




THOUGHTS: AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!! OH MY GOD !! DID HE SEE THAT !!!! DID HE SEE ME TWISTING ,CHOKING ANDD AHHH I STUTTERED !!!
WHY DID THAT HAPPEN !! GOD WHY DID YOU ALLOW THIS TO HAPPEN !! GOD !! AM SURE HE THINKS AM A PSYCHO !!




*he walked away to say hi to the others ,, i don't think that he saw me ! or noticed something stupid in me THANK GOD*





i was looking at him the whole time with the corner of my eyes , and then he sat on the table to have his launch !.. he had his launch after us . he was eating some rise without tomato sauce , with some chicken and he was eating *hearts*
and then he coughed ,while that my heart skipped a beat it's like my heart coughed with him and then he grabbed a tissue after that he got up and went to his room . i didn't want him to go i wanted to talk to him and make any moves . and then minnie came up to me





Minnie : HEY wanna go play some nintendo !!





thoughts : ehhhmm nintendo ha ?!! that would be in his room .





Me: YES!!!! *with an excited tone*





Minnie : ok ok !! *laughing* take it easy cherrii ! let's head up to Muncie's room






banana: HEY HEY guys am coming *running after us*





so we climbed the stairs ! and there was his room




Cherrii: soooooooo.. whose knocking ?!





Minnie: *Laughing*




Banana: guys !!! GET OVER IT WILL YA !! HELL YEA AM KNOCKING





she knocked asked him to play with his nintendo , he agreed and then we all got in , we were playing





he was sitting there on his bed watching us playing , and then
i offered him to play with us





cherrii: ehhm.. Muncie ?





Muncie: Yea... *turned his face to look at me *




his eyebrows were thick a Little ,they're so DARK !! and his eyes were dark too . His look was so SHARP that i couldn't handle that look . THAT WAS HOT .





cherrii: wanna play with us ? *blushing*





Muncie: *smiles* Yea sure




that smile killed me !!





so he got off his bed with the hottest move ever !! he put his hands on his bed supporting his weight on his hands to push his self up and then he got up !! the whole time am melting !!
and then he sat next to me and started playing !






thoughts: AWWWWWWWWW , he's sitting next to me *hearts*






when he's sitting next to me , it meant something to me *hearts*
we started playing together , he got so excited and so into it , he would sit on his knees and straights his back . and start OHHH MAAN! and beautiful voices he makes ! and our shoulders barely touches when he gets into it ,, hehehe ya 7yatii ......... and he would make fun of me that am not a good player at this game ! hehe ... he was amazing !! ana i was really happy , i have never ever ever been this happier ,,



and then .........





My sister roxan came up to




Roxan : hey hunnii we're going home




me: oh really * i didn't look happy*




thoughts : NOOOOOOOOOOO!! i want to sit here with him ! and with my lovely cousins




ROXAN: yea hunniie get ready mom is in the car



me : ok




so i wore my shoes and i said bye to him




Muncie: Bye cherrii * smiling * [the smile i adore]





cherrii: hehe *blushing * bbye *hearts flying above me*





Minnie&bannana: bye sweet heart





cherrii: bye guys



i got in the car i kissed my moms cheeks , HEHE i always do that
we reached home with him stuck in my mind of course
it was 8:pm . and it was a school night so i wore my pj !
and cuddled my self in bed and i said it ..


I .... LOVE ... YOU ... MUNCIE



and slept with happiness that he brought to my world ......

one-sided love [2]

It was a sunny day and i woke up with a smile on my face ,and he was still on my mind !
i kept my self laid on my bed for minutes thinking about him again ! i was trying to remember his smile that i loved and the way he entered the room ,he was STUNNING !!
and i was smiling the whole time !!! and then i realized what am i thinking of .




me: WTH , what am i doing i can't be in love with him , why am i still thinking of him ?!!
OH NO am not gonna let this happen !! AM NOT IN LOVE, am only fourteen for god's sake!!





and then i got off my bed ,went to wash my face with my pink soap ,brushed my teeth, wore my my fuchsia short dress , i tied my hair . i got re-freshened and then i decided to read a book !





i went to my shelf where i keep my books on , i wanted to read something about love and i kept searching till i found a book named "a simply love story" i started to read and read and read and then slowly my mind started to drift to somewhere that my heart loved and my mind hated it !




i was picturing him hugging me with his arms around me .. with me drowning in his wide comfy chess ( that was too soon for that i know , but i thought of it ) though i never felt his chess BUT I LOVED IT SOMEHOW !
and i was grinning the whole time while imaging that .




it was obvious i fell in love !! but i kept denying that to MYSELF where i had supposed to be honest to my self especially when being in love with someone !!
and that's a HUGE psychological problem ! i was messed up !




and i kept denying my love towards him to myself ! and i was even criticizing everything about him from the top of his head to the bottom of his toes just to convince myself that am not into that boy ! though am loving everything about him !




and that lasted for 4 months i guess !




until one day mom was waking me up !
mom : Hunnii wake up we're going out !






me: MOOOOOOM , i don't want to go out ! please i wan to sleep * sleepy voice with anger*


mom : come on you have only 10 mins to get up wash your face , brush your teeth and get dressed HURRY UP !!!!!!!




me: WHAT PART OF I DON'T WANT TO GO OUT YOU DON'T GET MOTHER !!!! *yelling*




mom : IKLY TEBEN !!!! AM YOUR MOTHER DON'T USE THAT TONE ON ME !! *while taking off my blanket *




Me : ALRIGHT ALRIGHT !!! *walking with my feet stepping really hard on the floor describing how furious i am *




Me: where are we going ? !!!




mom: your uncle ad********'s house ! (that's his dad which it means we're going to have launch at Muncie's place )





when she spelled those words !! i couldn't stand on my feet don't know why ! i suddenly started to feel some heat !! and oh i felt like peeing too !!!!!




in my thoughts: WWWWWWWHHHAATTT !!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO AM NOT GOING TO THAT PLACE NO WAY !!! WHAT NO NO NON ON ON NO . i have to convince mom to let me stay home i can't go there no EVER !!


mom noticed something weird in me !!


mom : 7bibtii shfeech ? yala go get dressed now !



thoughts: WHAT GET DRESSED NO !!!



Me: ehmm mama . UGH !! i don't want to go there ! please i don't want to !
i promised my cousin shahood to go out with her today * i lied* !




mom :hunnii no , they invited us and it'll be rude to not go !




Me: well mama their not gonna be waiting for me , they want you ! now please mama , don't force me to go !




mom : WHY ARE YOU SO NERVOUS LIKE THAT ,IS THERE SOMTHING WRONG ,?





Me: nervous !!! who said am nervous ! and no there is absolutely nothing wrong





MOM : HUNNII YOU'RE EVEN SWEATING !!





Me: UGGH ,, ehmm . . O o o kkk !!! i just woke up for god's sake !! of course i'll sweat i'll go get dressed now !





she got out of the room with a weird look on her face lol !





thoughts : what !!!!!!!she can't take me !! i can't go there ! i don't want to see him !
wait wait wait cherrii ! why don't you want to see him !! you're not in love remember !! it'll be cool ! he's just a boy in a your big family . CHILLAX




Me: YEA RIGHT AM NOT IN LOVE WHY THE HELL SHOULD I BE SO NERVOUS LIKE THAT !! ..





and then i went to my closet and i picked my black t-shirt with a black jacket on the top and a black tie with lots of colorful stars on it , and i picked my black skinny jeans !
i looked so EMO !!! that was my style , not like that exactly.. i loved it TOO DARK but it was my style i never really considered my self as an emo !! but i gotta admit that i looked like them ! but never cut myself ! and i headed to my mirror to put on some make up !!! and i looked to my self and i looked SO DARK !!! at that time i liked how i looked like ! but now am 16 years old !when i look at my self I LAUGH A LOT !!! and i can't imagine how did mom allow me to look like this . WHY DIDN'T SHE STOP ME !!! seriously i looked like one of those depressed kids EEEEWWW !!! and i had this short haircut with bangs covering one eye of mine !! i looked horrible !


anyway ...


i got in the car with mama and the maid with my sister !
and mom started to drive the car , and while we were in the car , mama was looking at me !
i don't know why ! but i think she wanted to know why i was nervous and determined to not go there! while that i was listening to music



and then we arrived ! every one stepped out of the car ! except for me !!
when i stepped my foot out of the car ! i was shaking !! i didn't want to go in there !! i just didn't want to !! i was so scared to see him ! . anyway we got in their house , i said hi to every one , and thank god he wasn't there !




but for my surprise my best two cousins were there MINNIE AND HER SIS BANANA !! OHHHHHHHHHHH i missed them =[ it has been 4 months since the last time i saw them !!!




minnii: OHH GOD CHERRII !!!!!!!!! I MISS YOU SO FREAKING MUCH !! *TIGHT HUGS*





banana: CHERRII CHERRII CHERRII !!! I MISS YOU I MISS YOU =D





cherrii : * laughing* HEEHEHE ,, GUYS I MiSS YOU TOO WALLA !!





and then we went to have our launch !





Minnie : so how are you !? *SMILING*




cherrii: am doing great !! what about you *looking at the stairs waiting for him to come down*




Minnie: that's great ! .
i have to tell you about something * she started talking about that thing but i wasn't with her . i was waiting for him to come down .. in a moment i started to hear her voice getting vanished lol i wasn't with her TOTALLY and it was obvious *





thoughts: when will he come down !! OH GOD PLEASE keep him up there !! and god please i don't wa...... *got interrupted by her hand waving at me*




Minnie: why are you looking away am right here !!




cherrii: AAHH !WHAT AM SORRY hehe nothing* my face was turning red *




minnie: *looking at me with a very strange look*





cherrii: so u were saying ? !!




minnie : whatever ! just forget it !




cherrii: ok sorry !




minnie : *laughing * god i miss you




cherrii : heheh LOL !ok ! me too




and then we finished our launch , and i got up on my feet , turned my head , and he was there !!!!!!!




thoughts: NOOOOOOOOOOO !!!! *

one-sided love [1]

there was this girl ! who have never believed in love in the first sight
and she would laugh at people who'd believe in it ! until one day came and she was sitting with her cousins in that Muncie's (that's him)house , he's the cousin of my mom . so Cherrii *me*was sitting with her cousin minnie and banana we were all having a good time it was fun we were singing using the Karaoke

minnie :come on cherrii it's your turn , let's hear it

banana : yea yea cherrii *excited tone*

me: *holding the mic to sing* ok ok alright <33>

as i was about to sing . that handsome guy entered the room we were sitting in
i knew him before , but it had been a very long time since the last time i saw him !
he had changed a lot ! i was fourteen and he was soon sixteen to be .
My heart beats were racing , i suddenly started to sweat , i couldn't even spell a word i just dunno what happened to me !

Muncie : ehmm Hey girls ?

minnie , Cherrii . banana: hey

banana : hello what's up !!

Muncie : hehe nothin , did you see a wire with three coulres on the top ?

minnie : no i didn't

banana : me either

since both of them answered they were waiting for an answer from me
so he in amazingly way turned his face to look at me waiting for me to tell if i saw it or not !
he placed his eyes on mine , I WAS LOST !!! i couldn't say anything my tongue was held !!
his amazing black eyes with those dark eyebrows !! REALLY efected me !!

cherrii: *looking at them with a confussion look * ugh ,, no i havn't seen it !

in my thoughts: AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!
WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT !!! WHAT HAPPENED TO MEEE !!!
I BET HE THINKS AM THE STUPIDEST THING ON EARTH !!

uuuuggghhhhh i wonder where those feelings are taking me =/ !!

Muncie: ugh alright =] * he was giving us his back to leave the room while me still staring at him *

banana: ok bbye <3>

Minnie : ok now SING

ME : * Totally ignoring her ,looking at him walking away heading the door with a tiny grin on my face *

Minnie: HELLOOOOO * waving at me*

in my thoughts again: OH GOD WAS THAT GUY AN ANGEL O.O !

OK OK EASY CHERRII YOU ARE NOT IN LOVE

minie: HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY !!! *with a frown tone *

me: oh hey .. ehe ,, UGGH what ?

Minnie : aren't ya gonna sing ?

me: alright alright ..

and then i started to sing a song that oddly enough it kinda described the moment i had !!

i don't really remember the song but it was about love from the first sight which is something i have never believed in ! and i would really get into that song and i was thinking about him while i was singing ,, and then the annoying banana turned off the karaoke and asked us to play with something interesting , so she thought why not go and ask Mr. electronics stuff *muncie*

we all agreed

so we were walking down stairs to his room and then it was time to knock the door where every body froze :

Minnie : so whose knocking

Me: SO NOT ME !! it was banana's idea

Minnie : OHH YEA cherrii has a good point here

since it's banana's idea then she knocks

banana : WHAT THE HELL !! ok you guyz we all knock ?

me: what part of so not me you don't get ?

Minnie : yea banana knock

banana : you know what!! WHAT EVER i'll knock !!

minnie&me : NO NO WAIT !!! *but it was too late she had already knocked !!

banana : HEEEEYYY MUNCIE

muncie* sitting on his chair* ohh hey

banana: Can we play nintendo 64 ? pleeeeeeease

we're really bored

muncie : HAHA HAHA *The best laugh i have ever heard*

alright banana it's right there All done just put in the game you want to play .

banana : AWWW thank you so much ..

Alright you guys now get in *pointing on us+screaming*

in that moment i so didn't want to get in and see him , GOD I DON'T KNOW WHY!

i was so shy , and i just kept convincing my self that what's happening to me was just a normal feeling that everybody get !

so banana entered the room and she was like : YAAALLAAA what is wrong with you guys ?

minnie what is it ???? get in yala . you guys were convincing me to knock and ask him and i did !! i knocked and i asked him , now it's the part where all of us get in and have fun playing right !! ???

minnie : alright alright chillax woman !

at that moment banana got in the room choosing the game to play !

while minnie is asking me why i don't want to get in there ?

minnie: so cherrii ? you're not getting in ?

cherrii : what me ? ehmm , hehe * god what's happening ?*

yea i will but first i need to use the bathroom.*confused tone*

minnie : the bathroom ha ? now you want to use the bathroom ?

cherrii : yea i want to use the bathroom !

minnie: do you like him ?

cherrii: WHAT !!! NO I DON'T i don't know him well to like him?? !!!!

WHAT THE HELL ,, IF I Li.....

*interrupting me *

minnie: OK OK OK !!!!!! RELAX !!! U DON'T

GOD !!!!!!! i believe you now get in !!

i was forced to get in there , i had no choice , i had to go in there .

and at that point Banana was yelling at us to get in there ,it was so embarrassing !

anyway i got in there , when i got there he was sitting on his chair facing the computer . he's back was facing us ! , so he turned to us me and minnie to see who entered the room

when he turned his face ,i felt like the moment was VERY slow as if it's a slow motion ! he gave me that BEAUTIFUL look from the MOST BEAUTIFUL eyes that he has. it was a quick look but i so LOVED IT !! . and then suddenly he gave us his back !

anyway i was SO SHY !! .. i even felt like i want to pee !!

it's weird but i really wanted to HAHA!

we started to play mario! i was the best at this game ! but that day i was the WORST !!

i kept looking at him , actually his back !! and i SO LOVED looking at him <3>

i kept looking at him every minute and when turns his face to the t.v screen to see whose winning , i try my hardest best lol to win and i loose everytime he looks . i was trying to impress him !

banana: hey !! guys i think it's getting boring let's try something else !

when i heard her, i was like NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!

cause i wanted to look at him ,i just didn't get enough of it .!

but i didn't show it .

minnie : yea let's go out

cherrii: yea alright !

and then we thanked him for allowing us to use his nintendo64

and we got out ! ,, we spent a good time together and then mom called me to get prepared cause she was on her way to us to take us and go back home

when i reached home i laid on my bed and he was on my mind ! thinking about that strange feeling i got towards him !i was wondering is it a teen feelings or was something else i just kept thinking about it till i fell a sleep ..................